Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Sadly missed - Arfa

The late Arfazuan is my colleague.
We work at the same branch..same unit..same Section.
He's my senior.
But he was younger 1 year than me.
Same origin, Sabah. But he is from Kota Belud. Race : Bajau.
He is a good friend. A gem that is very rare to find.
A member of Cadenza d Colours
A member of Pena Stanza (Puisi Inovasi)
A member of NR Roar (Creative showcase HQ)
A member of Arca Dance Theatre (Drater Inovasi)
A member of Arca Dance Group (Dwitari Inovasi)
A member of NR Choirs
A member of WHT.
A member of Superjalangans.
Almost every group I've ever joined in, he was there.
Every events in LHDN he will took parts. RatRace..Zumba..Dance..Aerobicthon..Batik Model..Emcee.. you name it.

He respects people. He loves childrens. He make friends with who ever regardless of backgrounds. We used to call him "anak dara". Because he knows how to do chores that a women usually do.

Yesterday I watched his last breath.. his last long breath....
The visit was initially a plain visit. Just to see how is his condition. I didn't expect the visit to turned into witnessing his last breath.
It turned out that he has been warded since Tuesday last week. And we as friends, close frinds of him.. didn't have a slightest info about him being warded. Last whatsapp message I received from him was on Friday last week (25/03/2016). And he mention he is ok.. don't worry. The whole last week we (friends) texted him asking about his condition. He just told us that he was resting at his friend's house. Sampai ke tahap kritikal, dia masih sembunyikan yang dia sedang sakit tenat.
14th March.. I met him at office. Dia singgah sekejap, I dunno utk ambil barang ka apa.. We talk a little while. He looks pale.. kurus sgt. Dia ckp berat turun mendadak.. 71kg to 65kg in 1 week.. 1 week before he was warded at Pusrawi. He just told us that there's a slight infection on his lungs and told us not to worry. After discharged from pusrawi... I didn't know that he was warded again. Not until my friend Ezza & Zati told us. Arfa's cousin called Noi.. and then Noi let them knew about it. They rushed to Hospital  Sg Buloh on 28th March. He was already semi conscious.
Yesterday we decided to shoot email on his health condition. Many colleagues even from other branch came to pay a visit. But we've never expected the visit will turn out to be the last visit.
All we knew from the cousin, he suffered lungs infections. Until one of the nurses told Zati "kalau boleh x payah masuk melawat. Pesakit ada Tibi Positif". Barulah kami tahu. 😢
In the HDW (High Dependency Ward), Arfa was placed in a quarantined room. Visitor can watch from outside the glass room. At first only 2 person at a time can enter the ward. Tapi mungkin dipermudahkan bagi semua dapat lawat dia.. Semua terus masuk.. Sec.Guard keeps reminding us, tapi kami x berganjak. We watch the screen. the pulse fluctuating not stabilize. And there he goes.. We entered the room around 12.40pm.. 1.30pm I noticed the machine is going hay wire.. bunyi sana sini.. ngam2 sy masuk bilik pakai mask lagi tu. Then one of Arfa's friend ask me to call his mom. So the whole family enters. And we witnessed the scene. His mom keeps kissing his forehead.. his hand.. his feet. Because she didn't have the chance to meet him while he is still conscious. 1.30pm.. I knew.. He is already gone..right after the long breath that he released.. But the official time taken is 1.45pm..the time where the machine is pulled out from him. The doctors and nurses outside the room was just smiling in silence. Because they knew already he is gone. But they let us.. the friends and family.. take time to pay our last respect to him.

I waited till the body sent to forensics for post mortem. Then we went in the room to take last look at him. He was already paled..very pale. But his face is just like sleeping.. then I had to get back to office. Tumpang kereta org kan.. Ikutla driver..

How will I face my day.. my every working day. My desk is just next to his. We were neighbour. I'm sad.. very sad.. I've knew him for 3 years and 3 months now.. Since the 1st day I've step my foot at NR Branch.
My husband used to get jealous at him. Because we were close. But later on he is okay with it. Because there's nothing to be jealous of. In fact they were friends too.. we've met and hangout a few times together.

Arfa.. Tenang dan damailah kau disana.. Senyuman ko yang paling kami semua ingat. Sebab ko x pernah tunjuk muka sedih. Ko selalu buat lawak.. Selalu jadi aww kunun. Time praktis menari ko slalu bagi step2 sexy.. Kuih batik ko kami ingat... Selalu layan kami yg gegurl2 WHT ni.. kalau ada yg pregnant ko bawa juga kasi layan tu mengidam. Betapa bagusnya ko Arfa. X pernah memilih kawan..Kalau pg kenduri ko tolong jaga anak aku.. Macam2 ko tolong.. Kalau raya ko la yg paling bersemangat cari tema utk Unit.. hias2 unit.. kalau hari merdeka ko pegi sangkut bendera di area depan unit. huhu. Arfa... Arfa.. Kenapa ko sembunyikan ko sedang sakit.. Tahu.. tujuan ko x mau org susah hati.. tapi.. kita kan semua kawan2.. huhu...

Semoga urusanmu dipermudahkan arwah Arfa... Mudah-mudahan ko ditempatkn bersama orang2 yang beriman.. Sebab ko seorang yang sangat baik. Tiada ganti.

#ArfazuandalamKenangan
#ArfaIdham
#SadlyMissed

I refused to post any pictures of him.. I know many friends does that in FB. But this is me.
Let him rest. We all missed you Arfa.

-Bella

Monday, March 28, 2016

Off Day-Productive Day

I took a day off today. Actually I applied for leave since Friday. But I couldn't help myself from thinking about the workload. So, I cancelled my day off on Friday.
But today, I forced myself to take a leave!
My goodness what a workaholic I am!

I told my husband that when I'm on my day off, I will be off from doing all my daily routines. Including waking up early and sending the kids to school.
Nahhh.. He won't buy it. I still has to follow him sending off the kids to school and babysitter's house. 😂

Get out of the house at 7.20am..then came back home at 8am.
Took a short nap.. then 8.30am off for car service. Yaaa... my husband made me follow him wherever he go. Baru ingat mau rileks² di rumah, suda kena suruh jadi escort.
Hahaha

Got the car serviced..tkr belting fan..minyak gear..blablabla.. RM161.. minyak hitam beli sendiri smlm di Shell, HX 7 RM132.. fuel economy bla bla bla.. I had to know all these things since I'm the one who's using the car.
Then we went to another workshop to do the door lock.. The 1st workshop didn't have a service for that. Mehh...
The 2nd workshop is actually our 1st choice tp slalu sana ramai org. Yg bestnya sbb staff dia specialist in each field. Pakar aircond. Pakar pintu. Pakar tayar. Pakar enjin. Everything under 1 roof 😜. What I was trying to say is, kalau ramai customer, kena tunggu la smpai org yg pakar tu settle keja dlu.
Doorlock siap... motor dia rosak..so ganti..RM50. Murahhh.... 2 pintu bah tu. central lock dia bikin.. endatau la workshop lain. Tapi last time sy kena dgn kawan, baru mau cek whats wrong with the door lock pun tu workshop A (bukan nama sebenar) caj RM40. Just untuk buka & tgok. Kalau fix the problem RM80 kenen. Mentang² la kami semua prempuan masa tuh. huh!

Ok.. Settle.. Hal ketuk & cat bekas kemek org langgar haritu husband tlg settle lusa..  hihihi...

So kami makan... around 11am cmtu.. pastu sambung lg being productive (muahahahaha) by pampering ourselves at the Salon. hahahahhh... Nine to Nine Hair Studio.. Our favourite place. Sebab sana harga berpatutan & service superb! Look for kak Lastri.. She's good & efficient.

Cut+wash+treatment at RM50 only. Other place around here confirm RM70+.
Husband cut + wash at RM30. So total up Kachingggg... RM80 for both of us. Hehe.. 😜

After salon went to fetch the kids at babysitter's house because Haven & Harvey have an appointment with dentist at 3pm today. Walaupun di sekolah ada khidmat pergigian kan, I still bring them to dentist. My past experience during primary school with dentist is not that good. Hahaha... lubang kecil jadi lubang besar.. pastu tampal cincai².. Kuat marah lagi tu.. kasar.. huh!! I dunno about now la, but at least the checkups at clinic are more detailed..cuz we pay for it kan. Oh.. cabut & tampal free di klinik panel.. Employees benefits kan. 😜

Fuuuu... penat.. My off-day is not actually a day off. hahaha... But I'm satisfied. And so I ended up my day with Nasi Ayam Penyet sedappp... Around here only.. Tmn Sri Sinar. You usually will find the best food at hidden kedai di ceruk2.. Jgn pandang hanya pd  luaran... 😉

Ok la.. tu ja my kind of day today.
How's yours??

Chiaws,
-Bella

Friday, March 25, 2016

T.I.M.E

Put up a smiling face.
It looks good on you.

Spare some time with your love ones.
It mean the world to them.

Listen to what people are saying.
You might not hear them get bubbly everyday.

Look in the eyes of your partner.
Because eyes never lies.

Hugs and kisses are not just an act.
It expresses your feelings inside from the grip of your hands and sway of the kiss.

Appreciate time.
Even if its just a few minutes.  😊

Chiaws,
-Bella

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Ignorant

Sometimes life teach you lessons so many times but you keep ignoring it.

Thats when you felt like being used for the sake of others. Only seek when needed and then off they go.
Then you only realize that you're the dumbest person ever.

But still, you still let yourself being treated like that. Hoping for nothing.

Why?
Because you're stupid. 😢

Monday, March 14, 2016

Small matters, matter.

Sometimes people thought some things doesn't really matter. For them, its just a small thing.. stupid thing.. unrelated.

But they tend to forget that not everything is about themselves.
Some people only look at things thats kind of related to them. Without thinking that it does matters to someone else.

I learned that, things that looks like small to me, means a lot bigger to somebody else.
And I hope that others feels the same too.
Because I put a hold on a sayings "treat others the way you want to be treated".

Well who am I to make a fuss out of it kan?
Depends lah..
Kalau irrelevant, just ignore.
Kalau relevant, please take note.

One day when I become an ignorant person, don't ask me why.

-Bella

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Finding Grace

Recently went back to Sabah for a short trip,  attending a friend's wedding. Being far from hometown doesn't mean you don't need to invite us on your big day. We will try our very best to attend it, just to show you that you really mean something to us. The friendship that you made us cherish, makes us feel honoured to witness your big day. But be sure to invite us 3 months plus earlier. So we can arrange our schedule and book air tickets. Air ticks on last minute is so damn expensive man. Unless it was sponsored. 😏

It was quite hectic and our schedule was badly jammed packed! But between it, I managed to slipped in finding the Grace again. The old Grace. The bubbly cheerful and hyper Grace. The old me. The manja Grace. Whose during the bujang time was so snobbish and rough towards her parents. After getting married and have kids.. I realized that I was never manja to my parents. And surprisingly, my manja came out now.. I mean during these old age that I'm climbing. Baru konon mau tunjuk² tu manja sama mommy & daddy. Jumpa² ja daddy terus saya gapus. Mommy pun..smpai mamy kekok mau peluk balik. Cuz I was never that kind of girl back then.

So here's a few pic that I took during the very shorty trip.