Monday, November 30, 2015

Mixed feelings

I don't know how to explain this weird mixed feelings of mine.

I'm happy about it.
But I'm worried.
Will this work out the way I want it?

I hope things will get better.

May all the good things keeps coming in.
I don't want to feel sad.. no more sadness please.

Chiaws,
-Bella

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Promises

It is better not to make any promises if you can't keep it.

Because once a heart is broken, it can never be the same.

I feel like a fool.

Because I'm the only one at lost.

-Bella

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Friday, November 13, 2015

When she's happy..

When she's happy...

She smiles without a reason.

She talks too much.

She laugh loudly and wildly.

She sings every songs that was played on the radio.

She always feel hungry.

She wants a bite of your food.

She makes fun of every word uttered from you mouth.

She started to gossip with you.

She asked you "am I cute?" (Beware! Its a tricky question!)

She hold your hand and swing it while having a walk with you.

She finished her food.

She took a lot of picture with you.

She shares her dreams with you.

She play with your face.. eyebrows..and your NOSE!

She jumps around without worrying about passers by.

She makes the Peace ✌ sign a lot!

And when she's really happy???

She smiles with teary eyes.

"If I die young. Bury me in satin lay me down on a bed of Lavenders"

My smiling heart,
Bella Ace

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Time

I appreciated TIME.

No matter how busy you are.. when you make time for people even for a few minutes, for them it's more than enough.
It shows that you care.
That you are willing to spare part of your life with them. Because those few minutes will never be replay.

TIME is a frenemy. It can bring us happiness in a short while, but it also can be snatched right in front of you with just a blink of an eye.

TIME is the most jealousy thing.

TIME is never enough for us.

Appreciate TIME. Because its a moment that could never be reversed back from the beginning of anything.

Thank you for your time reading this post. I appreciate it.

My humble soul,
Bella Ace

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Games

Is this a game for two? Because I think I'm not playing along.

Lets think of this.

You accidentally broke your mom's favourite vase. Then you say sorry. Mom goes wild yelling and throwing tantrum with googlie eyes crazy mad at you.

The next day :
a) you bought a new vase for her to make her forget about the old ones.

or

b) you pick up the pieces and tried to glue it all together. Even if its not the same anymore, but its still your mom's favourite vase.

When you understands the hidden message, make up ur mind and take action.

Miss Puzzle
-Bella Ace

Monday, November 2, 2015

Hello?

..not even a hello.

Pity the kids.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

I'm still hanging on..

..to uncertain thing that I myself unsure about.
Is this the right decision for us?
I asked myself many times "Where did it go wrong".
Am I the one to blame..solely?
My heart keep screaming "no it's not your fault!". But my mind keep thinking every single mistakes that I ever done to him.
This is stressfull.
I lost my apetite.
My smile.
My laugh.
My twinkle in my eyes.
My mood.
It affects me so much.
And everytime I look at my son's faces at night right before I sleep, my heart crushed to the core. I burst to cry. Without a single word uttered out of my mouth.
Just tears.
An argument is a normal thing.
But things aren't getting along lately. He shuts me out totally. Blocking me from every means to contact him. He even mention to change number if I keep seeking him.
This is really heartbreaking.
Last week we celebrate anniversarry and have a very wonderful time together. The next day everything crumbles. Just because I can't fulfill what he wants. I had enough of what he wants. Always what he wants. When it comes to me, he can't even tolerate.
When will this end?
How far can this marriage go?
I never agreed to the stupid decision.
Why would you even think about doing it?

My selfish heart,
Bella.

My 3 little soldiers

We were bored stuck at home since morning. So I decided to treat them at nearby KFC. I'm happy watching them smiling and the yelling such as "yeayyyyy...makan KFC!!". So cute of them.

They are my little sunshines. My 3 little hyperactive soldiers.

Haven Trent
Harvey Clinks
Harley Sven